w00t! here it is in beta form! just follow the link!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pkFQgMCah-E

Woohoo! I'm going to New York again! Yeah it's a business trip, but that's ok! It is so exciting still!

This shit is fucking hilarious!

GO HERE!: http://www.starcraft2.com/features/terran/terratron.xml

I am sick of this project. I know it's going to get thrown back in my face again. That's what always happens when I finish. How the fuck do they expect me to do this by myself in a short amount of time especially when it gets thrown back at me?

So irritating....

In other news, I actually have met people that have some similar interest as I do. Only one of them actually wants to be my friend at the moment, but he lives in San Antonio. Some of the others seem wary of me, but are still happy to include me in their Repo! shadow cast.

So while they probably would rather not hang out with me outside of that, it's much better than being a hermit. Besides I shouldn't expect people I just met to warm up that quickly. It would be nice to have some regular friends though...

I'm finally gonna have some people to hang out with here!

I was recruited by the local Repo! Shadow Cast as Luigi Largo! I will get to be drunk and 'stab' people all night!

I hope I do well.

comparatively speaking, i have an awesome life. however, that doesn't stop me from hating every fucking moment of it!

It's been a long time since I've written any posts here. I suppose I might as well make this update.

I was in Utah from July 2008 to January 2009. Now I'm back in Texas again. Things are going alright I guess. My finances are a wreck, but at least I got to see some of my Utah friends who came out here last weekend.

This last weekend I went with those friends down to San Antonio to see Slipknot. I wasn't really a big fan until that show. They put on a badass concert. They made the pre-show bands look like wimps.

Work has been kinda screwy lately. My brother is terrible at giving instructions. It's really irritating especially when other people think I've lost my mind because of bad instructions he gave me. Yes I know I'm fucking nuts, but other people don't need to have it pointed out to them (especially when it comes to work)!.

There are other interesting things going on as well, but I am not going to talk about them because I'm sick of trying to explain my perspective. I only know 2 people who understand. It's like everybody else is either stupid or completely incapable of seeing things from other peoples' perspectives.

Speaking of people and stupidity, I'm just sick of it. Makes me kinda glad I've gone back to being a hermit. I'd rather easily avoid horrible people than risk meeting them in hopes of finding people I can truly connect with. There's too large of a margin for error unfortunately.

Anyway, that's all I have for now. I gotta get back to being pathetic and slightly useful.

Current Location: Austin, Texas
Current Mood: Sick of everything
Current Music: Somebody Someone - Korn

So I'm going back to Austin on Sunday. I am attempting to put together a gathering of people on saturday. Let me know if you want to come and I'll give you details.

Here I am in Utah for Christmas, again. This time it's for a different reason. Last year I came to see Byrdee. This year I am just stuck here because of work. I wish it was last year. That was a much better time. At least this time I don't have to deal with the overload of extreme anticipation.

Somehow it still feels like it did last year when I got here. It's a cold twilight zone. However, this time it seems a little bit more empty. I'm not sure how to explain it exactly.

I wish I didn't have to feel this way. It's annoying and gets in the way especially since there is no resolution. I don't know why, but it seems like maybe I don't deserve it. Well, actually I probably don't heh.

I need to get out of here. It's been fun seeing a lot of old friends, but I've overstayed. This void will completely encapsulate me if I don't leave soon.

Sometimes it's hard to focus on the good things, especially right now.

Well, I've been here in Utah since July. It's getting much colder and darker. I didn't mean to be here this long, but I'm divided on when to leave.

First, I have to wait to finish with my meetings with my brother's client. After that, I can choose when to leave.

If I stay for Christmas:

Pros: I get to see my grandma who I've never met. There's a chance of seeing an old friend or two. Spend Christmas with my family. Go snowboarding.

Cons: It's colder than shit here. I hate snow except for the snowboarding aspect. I get to deal with dramatic and whiney people on a constant basis. This place is depressing the shit out of me.

I am not sure what to do. I really want to leave soon, but there are things holding me here. I don't know what to do.

I could use some suggestions if anybody has any.